Not wearing pyjamas lacking self confidence??

They say that going on exchange is a life changing event and that sometimes, it changes you. From my own experience I have to say that it did but also that change is not necessarily a bad thing and could be for the better.

The problem I have now is that after my fun overseas, I realised that I don't care much for brands anymore and am a much happier person for it. There are much more important things in life than superficial material goods and at the end of the day, it is only temporary happiness.

Of course, the want to buy luxury goods is not quite the point I'm getting at. I'm wearing a lot more jeans and shirts and boots and my mother seems to think that I lack self confidence and tells me that I need to get it back. Firstly, wtf. She gathers all this just because I don't bring pyjamas along and sleep in the shirt that I bring (which I do wear on the outside sometimes) and says this is a sign of not valuing yourself. Honestly, I was thinking about the lines of practicality and how I didn't want to bring much luggage and it's not that bad sleeping in a shirt. After all, the worst thing is that you'd probably stink from it but that's it.

The frustrating part is that she seems to think that all this lack of self confidence happened after my trip on exchange when I would wear tops to bed and wear them the next day anyway. She probably just never took much notice and also, is maybe attacking every small detail to further support her argument that I've changed as a person and that it's such a bad thing.

How ironic it is that the only reason that I would lack self confidence is when she says things like that and tells me that I'm not as bright and shiny as I used to be and that I'm losing my flair. Then she goes on to brag about how stunning she was and how everyone wanted to hire her after a first meeting without even asking for her qualifications. Ok, yes I am ranting a bit but this just happened half an hour ago so I do have lots of resentment in me right now.

Of course they're not going to bother asking for qualifications if you haven't even had a proper education! Ok, sorry, now I am bitching. But the point I'm making is that she sees what she wants to see and twists things as all people do, to satisfy her views.

Conclusion - just because I may wear the same top out and to bed (and once I wear it to bed, I try not to wear it out again anyway) does not mean that I value myself less. It just means that she is reading too much into it and what she thinks about the situation is not necessarily the case.

xox